Thursday, September 17, 2009

Why Joshua?

For a few months, I've felt like God was telling me to read Joshua. But I couldn't figure out what for. I knew the funk I was in, and the conquest of Canaan didn't seem like it would be the thing to snap me out of it. So I read through the epistles, focusing on all the purposes God has for us. I was blessed.
But I still felt like God was telling me to read Joshua. But I know those stories, and couldn't think of a single passage that would help me get back on track with quiet times. I couldn't even see there being a verse that would jump out at me. So I read through the minor prophets, since I hadn't read through them in awhile. I figured reading something not as familiar would teach me new things, and I'd be cured. I was very blessed.
But I still felt like God was telling me to read Joshua. But why would He tell me that? I didn't get it. And so I flipped through the Bible trying to figure out what to read next, coming up with nothing.
And then I went on this retreat. and had lots of time for reading. 'Fine, God. Fine. I'll read Joshua. I'll still have plenty of time to read some Psalms and some other stuff that will really get me going.'
So I read Joshua. And I found no passages that jumped out at me. Not a single verse grabbed me, and said, 'See? Here I've been this whole time, just waiting for you.' As far as the book of Joshua went, I got nothing.
But that, in and of itself, is where the beauty lies. Where do we get this idea that we have to get something, are entitled to get something, out of obeying God? The real blessing was knowing that I had (finally) obeyed my Lord. It was (and still is) a wonderful feeling; a feeling that a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and a feeling of joy. And that is why Joshua. That is why God had me read about the portioning of land after the Israelites entered Canaan instead of the easy-to-relate-to Psalms. And I think that's why He started telling me to read it long before He knew I would. Sometimes He works with our disobedience to show us how wonderful it is to obey. God is good. Why would we not want to?

1 comment:

Celeste said...

I still absolutely love this post.